Monday, March 24, 2014

bumpdate // 12 weeks


i know it's so early to even be calling it a "bumpdate" considering i'm still lacking that bump part BUT some of you wanted to know how i told vaughan so i thought i would write about it now and do a little update on what's been going on with me & the little one! 

before we were even close to getting pregnant, i would think about how i would tell vaughan and what kind of crazy awesome surprise it would be. i would secretly film it, he would cry... you know the works. now it's funny writing about what actually happened because it is no where close to what i thought the "story" would be!! but i wouldn't change it... basically it was the end of January and we had just gotten back from a little temple sesh. i had been holding going to the bathroom for forever so first thing i do is rush upstairs. i had only been ONE day late on my period, which is usual, and was already feeling the symptoms i usually get before so i knew there was no way i could be pregnant. however, mid going-to-the-bathroom i decided it would be funny to take a test. just for fun? i don't know what i was thinking but we had a test from a couple years ago from when we had a pregnancy scare so i had vaughan get that for me. i took the test and left the stick on the counter while i got out of my church clothes. i came back to undo my hair (not thinking AT ALL about the pregnancy test i had just taken) and i look down at the counter to grab my brush and there on the stick was A POSITIVE YES +++++++++ SIGN!!!!!!! i. was. speechless. quickly i grabbed the stick and turned around where vaughan was behind me. all i said was "BABE!!!!" eyes wide, holding stick in hand. and then he was silent for a couple minutes, waiting for his blown mind to piece itself back together. once it was semi-comprehended we both were screaming, jumping up and down and just completely ecstatic! 

even though i love surprising vaughan and had this "perfect reveal" planned out before... i'm even happier that we were able to share this surprise together. 

anywho, here's the bumpdate:

how far? 12 weeks

weight gain? lost weight, actually! just went into the doctors today and am a couple pounds less than my first check up. i expect that to change quickly though. 

maternity clothes? nope. 

sleep? it just depends! i'm a natural tummy sleeper so that's been an adjustment and also my "girls" (ahh, the boobs) have gotten so much bigger. they kind of feel weird when i sleep on my side so i have to stuff a pillow between them in order to sleep haha for a bit i'll toss and turn but i really can't complain since i get a nap like everyday! 

best moment of the week? FOR SURE the other night when i was half-asleep and vaughan was talking to baby. i didn't hear everything but i did catch him say "we are so excited to bathe you, play with you and breastfeed you... well, only momma can do that but i can give you bottles and steak." hahahaha yup baby, that's right. daddy is going to get you as much steak as a newborn ever wanted! 

weird pregnancy moment? not really. well... that's not true. pregnancy brain is real my friends! we've had to cancel some credit cards that i lost (which i actually found in my wallet about 20 minutes ago. go figure!) and almost killed mowgly on accident. 

movement? i wish! but no, not yet. 

size of baby? i believe this week the little one is about the size of a key lime. 

food cravings? not much. this first trimester my focus has been being able to keep food down! although i'm starting to have an appetite again so i'm sure vaughan will be going on late-night craving runs for me soon :) 

anything making you queasy? YES. the smell of cooked eggs! rancid. absolutely rancid. 

what am i looking forward to? April 17th is when we find out gender! our doctor fit us in earlier than usual so we could find out before my birthday on the 19th! woo! 

stretch marks? not yet. slathering myself in coconut oil every night though. 

what i miss? food and exercise and having energy. but it's been coming back to me slowly these past weeks so i'm excited to have those back! 

nursery? haha. no. not a chance. 

love you all! 
xx ryleeblake 

Saturday, March 15, 2014

we're having a baby! //


yay!! i can finally publicly talk about us being pregnant! it just feels so liberating, let me tell you. i know we are only 11 weeks but it seems like i've been holding this in for ages! and i obviously need a good lesson in patience because baby isn't even due until early october haha (i've only already selected about half my baby registry--heaven help me). anyway, we are absolutely thrilled, nervous, obsessed, excited, exhausted (just me), and have no idea what we are in for. so far we've had our 8 week check-up where we got to see our little one through the ultrasound and even hear the heartbeat! it was unreal. i'm pretty sure vaughan started crying ;) i also got about 7 viles of blood taken, so if you know me you know what a freaking MIRACLE that was. surprisingly though it was a little less scary this time since i knew it was for my baby. it may sound pre-mature but it's amazing how much i feel like a momma already :) 

xx

Thursday, March 13, 2014

black booties //




1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 

oh hey. i thought i would take advantage of my blog and ya know, ask for some girlfriend opinions?  i've been on the hunt for some black booties and all these ones are under $150! i just can't decide which ones are my absolute favorite (#thirdworldproblems)? so if you have an opinion, i'd love to hear :) thanks you! xx

Thursday, February 20, 2014

on living in utah //



tonight between olympic ceremonies and my emotional break from flappy bird i found myself scrolling endlessly on the homepage of facebook. i don't really do this often, but lately there's been contention on mormons and the movie Frozen. i have seen status's and have friends on both sides of the issues. some saying "i will never let my children watch Frozen again and will never buy any paraphernalia associated" and others "this is why i hate Utah and all the judgmental, unwelcoming crazy people." i'm all for preaching how you feel (i mean, if i didn't this blog would be a mantle for hypocrisy) but as naive as it sounds, i wish more people would think before they speak. 

i have been born and raised in Utah and i've grown up with a very open mentality. i remember in junior high i had this computer class with the creepiest teacher ever haha he was way sketch but it was one of my favorite periods. i had a polynesian kid and a mexican kid sitting on both sides of me. by the end of the first week of school, these hommies became my closest friends! i look back on that time and remember laughing my head off and all the inside jokes we had and oh man, just everything was so great. it didn't matter that i was this skinny white mormon blonde girl. we would call each other everyday. after a while, things got more serious. i remember the times when i would cry while the foster parents yelled at my friend, or when the other would tell me that his brother was forcing him to sell drugs. but most of all, i remember the day when my friend didn't show up for school ever again, without saying a word and without knowing what had happened to him.

several adults expressed their concern to my parents and me about the "company" i had chosen. 
after the school year ended, both had gone. i was alone. i went back to my other friends but to be honest it had been a real long time since i had a friendship like the one i had with those kids. 

after that, i started to resent those people who had "expressed concerns" about my friendships. i also resented those who were judgmental and made accusations based on appearances. i started to resent the people who made fun of those who were different. 

in turn, i became the girl who hated Utah, who would accuse all Mormons of being judgemental, conservative and close minded. i became the girl who swore often, who made fun of shade-shirts, who wore a bikini at BYU apartment hot-tubs (especially the ones with the modesty warning). i just didn't care. i liked being different. i liked being accepting and open-minded and easy to talk to. for some reason i felt like it was my job to advocate those who weren't the typical Utah mormon. 

but then something changed. 

i found out that someone extremely close to me, who was very young, had a pornography addiction. they were fighting so hard to avoid it but the temptation was everywhere for them. the worst was being at a pool, when girls would wear bikinis. it would make it so much harder for that person to focus on the progress he made. that same week, i found out that the apartment i was living in during my junior year of college had an anonymous internet analysis. the findings showed that in just one floor of the mens section, over 50,000 hits of pornography had been made in a single week. this apartment was in the center of Provo with over 80% of residents attending BYU. 

after finding all this out, i threw away all of my two-pieces. every single one. i just couldn't justify wearing one when i knew that the struggle of pornography was real, and closer than i thought it ever would be. i didn't want to be the reason why some boy would be tempted to fall back into that darkness. and because i didn't know the certain people who were struggling, i wouldn't risk it at all. that person could be someones future husband, a best friend, a father, or baby brother. either way i spun it , it just wasn't worth it.

since then, i slowly changed my mentality. i was still open, of course. i didn't resent my friends who wore two-pieces! it was my personal choice. they have theirs. i still love them. 

when vaughan and i were first married, and attended my palangi (white) ward, we would always run into people who had taught me throughout my youth. one of the days that i wasn't there, my favorite-ever-sunday-school teacher in the whole world made a comment to vaughan saying "how nice is it that rylee married a colored man!"..... i seriously died. i was SO embarrassed and so offended for vaughan. how did vaughan handle it? like a saint. he laughed, agreed and moved on. then it got me thinking, did she say that to hurt him? no. of course not. could she have re-phrased it? probably. but she most likely didn't have a second thought about it. i then found out that she had been raised in southern Georgia her whole life. her father was very racist and she grew up with terms like "colored". that's just what she knew. she is not a racist by any means, she didn't agree with her father. but because of that up-bringing, she saw the world differently. i love that woman, so much. we both do. she is very kind and funny and happy and vaughan could've chose to take it offensively and to swear off white Mormon wards. but he didn't. he chose to love her instead. 

i guess that's where my point lies. i've been on both sides of the argument. i understand where both hard-core mormons and anti-mormons are coming from. not on all issues, no. but i think both extremes are waisting energy on being right and putting down "other" people. i think it's off to say that "all Mormons in Utah are judgmental" 'cause you don't know every single Mormon in Utah. you don't know why they have such strong feelings about not wearing a two piece. but the same goes to Mormons. we shouldn't put down a LDS feminist because she is doing something we wouldn't do or something we don't agree with. 

i think, bottom line it just comes down to really loving people. loving the crazy mormon mom lady, loving the polynesian and mexican friend who made junior high SO MUCH better, loving the concerned adults who speculate, loving the gay couple who are pushing equality, loving the girl who is struggling with modesty and loving the people who are just trying to figure out what they believe in. 

you choose if people offend you.
you don't have to be either strongly-for or strongly-against something.
you really can just love. 
promise. 

xx

Friday, February 14, 2014

v day love //


happy valentines day! vaughan had to run to school to finish an assignment that's due at midnight so it's just me and mowgs laying on the floor watching Dr. Phil. have i told you guys he's taking 20 credits this semester?! 20! (Vaughan, not dr. phil haha) he is so busy all the time and as much as i hate him being away, i'm so proud and grateful for all the work he's been doing... even IF it's on v day. despite his crazy schedule i STILL woke up to flowers, cider and the olympics on t.v. AND a capri sun on my night stand so i'm doin pretty well for the time being :) 

oh, and this card is amazing right?!  i got it here 

hope you all have a great day! 
xx 

** congrats Alyssa V. for winning the Style Lately giveaway! i have your email so we will contact you shortly. 

Sunday, February 9, 2014

launched: mon sheree amour //



header wreath element: welivedhappilyeverafter


hello! first of all, so sorry about my site being down the last couple of days! my personal blog was locked by blogger for fear of a hacking threat. since this happened i've extended another day for the 'eat a lot sleep a lot' hoodie from earlier on this week. so if you haven't already, you can still enter in the giveaway! besides all that, i wanted to show you guys a blog design i've launched recently. i've been learning some fun coding tricks that have allowed me to have more control over the design so i'll be letting you in on some tips and tutorials here pretty soon. if you guys have some specific questions let me know! this blog was made for sheree otterson who is so crazy busy planning her wedding! so check out her blog and continue to stop on by. she is so lovely and has some fun ideas for her blog that you guys won't want to miss. 

hope you all had a great weekend! 

xx